Church is such an interesting experiment for me. I have enjoyed it more than I thought I would these past two weeks. Driving home today Brian asked me if I would stop going as soon as he decided what congregation he liked best. I really didn’t know the answer. I like that it’s something we do together, I like that it’s my choice to go, I like the sense of community. But is it for me long-term?
While I am not a Christian, when it comes to church, I’m wondering if that isn’t a misleading statement. The one sticking point for me, if you will, is that Jesus died on the cross to save us. I don’t agree. I think Jesus was a pretty cool dude, an excellent teacher, amazing and in touch with the divine. I think he chose to come here to show us what we are capable of. To show us what’s possible if we allow it and if our intentions are clear enough. I disagree that God required any sacrifice in order to welcome the rest of us home.
But I was raised in America (West by God Virginia no less), and I was raised by an ex-Catholic. I went to public school, I went to church, and I watched TV. Which to say that even though I’m not a Christian, I subscribe to fundamental Judeo-Christian ethics. The ten commandments make basic sense to me, as does the golden rule. Personal responsibility, family, marriage, compassion, social justice – all things I can and do get down with.
Which is why church is such an interesting experiment. There are many messages there for me to be reminded of, to reflect on. And I like that. It’s also a bit of a game to take references to Christ as Savior and make them applicable to me. Sometimes is possible to just substitute Universe for Jesus. When it’s not, the easiest way is to focus on love and compassion in the prayers and passages. I like the act of spending a dedicated hour each week to reflect on the universe and how it affects me and I affect it (not that this is the only time, but it is the dedicated time).
Phil’s sermon was pretty rockin’ today. Brian and I spent a lot of time talking about it. First of all, Phil was hilarious. I don’t know if that’s the kind of thing preachers like to have said about them, but it’s true. Also, the sermon was very conversational and very educational. The Gospel reading was Matthew 23 (I saved the bulletin this week). The gist of this passage is to warn us again hypocrisy in our church leaders. Phil’s sermon also added in the hypocrisy of other leaders, and in ourselves.
In the middle of the sermon we got a history lesson about the four political parties of the day – the Essenes, the Sadducees, the Pharisees, and somebody else. Sorry. I can’t absorb EVERYTHING. It was cool to learn about – who they were, what they represented, how they shaped the cultural landscape of the time. As a history major I deeply appreciated the context. As well as the mental image of Jews wearing huge boxes on their heads with copies of the religious laws in them. Why is that the preferred method for carrying things around? A box on the head. Really?
He was able to make references to current events as well as remind us that it isn’t just elders and church leaders who can be hypocritical. We can be. And often are. We get caught up in wanting to be recognized, in needing to feel important, in being known for being good, respectable, fill in the blank. But Jesus’ take come message was be humble and serve others.
After we got home we took a walk because it was such a nice day (I want to take advantage of nice weather as often as we can because soon we’ll be in perma-darkness and freezing temperatures). We talked a lot about the service, the components we liked best, the similarities and differences between church services we went to growing up, and what we thought we’d find at the other two congregations. Though I’m realizing now that the one thing we didn’t talk about what how we are hypocritical and how we can serve. LOL. But it was good that church sparked so much conversation.
Will I keep going after Brian has chosen a church and gotten in to the habit of it? I don’t know. I’m glad that I’m getting so much out of it for myself and not just sitting there passing the time. If I can get Phil throw in some Thoreau or Furness or Dickinson or Emerson every now and then I’d be pretty content.